time to make a decision

This week will be a time to make the final decision..I really don't want to go back to the period where everyday was booze, gambling and boredom(Exaggerate). Well, I guess subconciously, I do understand part of the real reason why I want to leave. For fear of future repercussions that even I cannot control, yet a part of me might just really yearn for this conclusion. Thus the struggle. My dear Kite, remember to publish it when you can spare the time...let me look at it from time to time. Its tiring period for me now, both emotionally and mentally. Please give me a sign..